Hey
So there's a lot i feel like typing. So much. So many thoughts. So much everything. It's crazy. The feeling that I haven't blogged for so long. Maybe that's bad. Having something like a dependency on blogging instead of talking to God about it and being content with that.
I got back from the cruise. School started. And it's been crazy.
It's like I knew it'd be hard. I went to lunch with my school friends before and I knew it'd be hard. I knew it'd be hard sticking to what I believed this school year. To be more proactive about my faith in school. To be an example of God.
But I didn't completely realize it till i hit school.
Yesterday was my first day. Thank God that I had K-cab small group last night too. I don't know what I'd do without them.
But it's hard. Being optimistic. Not being influenced by the feeling of intellectual superiority around my peers, the cursing, the insults behind people's back, the shallowness of almost everything we talk about. But i'm determined. That this year is going to change. That this year, i'm going to pray, grow, and be God's child. Because there just isn't any other way to do it. It's like a bible verse somewhere. Now that we've been shown the light, it's impossible and ignorant that we live in the dark.
I'm beginning to talk to a friend more. Because well it's really beginning to show me how God's blessed me with...people =) maybe she'll read this one day and be like 'WHAT" but otherwise, it's just really great having somebody from school I can just talk to about God. About fellowship. And talking about fellowship really showed me how lucky i am to have this. She doesn't have it at her church. Because there's like 2 youth in the youth category. We have like 90. in kna alone. on good days. But it's crazy. And God's really blessed us with an amazing youth group.
and i invited people to the bbq. and they rsvped as maybe
which is like one of the BIGGEST things ever. because...well maybe it's because i've never invited them. but i've always been scared about what they'll think when they come.
this year, it don't matter anymore. because if they think i'm weird for loving fellowship every friday, i guess that's alright but I won't be ashamed or anything synomous to that about God. Cuz he's absolutely awesome. =)
and the stars are probably out tonight. as they always are. kicking it up around the world =)
awesome
goodnight
-Chris
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