PTL =P

hey.

so i guess there's a bunch I could write about.
but I think the most important thing is how this school year's being and going to be affected by God and the Spirit working.

It's only been the first 3 days of school and already I can feel the tension. I can feel myself trying to find a reserve of patience or love and sometimes I find it or I pray that the Spirit will fill me and sometimes, sadly I don't show it outwardly but inside, i'm unable to find it. And sometimes it does show on the outside. =\
But God's forgiving and it's amazing. =)
I was reminded of my own hypocrisy today when I someone was saying they hated somebody and that we all did and i said he shouldn't' say that and somebody else said that I feel the same way as everyone else does.
And that's one of the biggest things for me this year.
Maybe it's a goal.
But more of it's one of the ways i'm going to show God's love. It's hard. Because i think i've kind of tried in the past. And I found myself being rebuked. And i'm glad I did. Because it means I haven't been trying hard enough. Or rather, I haven't been asking the Spirit for a means for me to change.
So that's one of the things. Something I need to be kept accountable for.

And also, tuesday's k-cab meeting's lesson was based on being an influence and the things that make you more able to relate to other people and influence them. One of them was likability or just friendliness in general.
I feel like God's really pulling me into that one. Along with the other ones. Because they're really important and relevant as well.
But it's like I've had at least 2 opportunities within these past days where I could've at least introduced myself to somebody I don't know or just be more friendly.
Something I also need to work on.

But I'm so thankful that despite my failures and incompetence, God's worked. =) My friends are coming to the KNA welcome night BBQ next week and as frightening as that may be, it's an opportunity for me to show them what I do every friday. Because I'm not going to hide it. They may think it's weird and that the people are overly friendly or weird but I love them and I won't deny that.

And I need to be grounded in my faith. Today I was in economics class and every 5 seconds, the boys were making sexual references or innuendos. So not cool. I need to learn to deal with those. To shut them out and then forget them really fast before they do anything. Not that they do really creepy things, it's just fun hearing them because...it's awkward. And uncool.

But i'm determined this year to let God build me up and lose myself in Him.
Let's do it =)
PTL!
haha that means Praise the Lord =P
it was funny because it was part of Tim's sharing.
well i should sleep now
-Chris