Drifter, Transient, & Miner

Hey

It's been a long week and at the same time, it's passed by ridiculously fast.
School's started and it's as if summer never happened. As if I just dreamt it all up. Except it didn't. Or if I did, that was one heck of an awesome dream =)
But I'm still pretty sure it wasn't a dream =P

Yesterday was the first day of KNA for this new year. Officially. But it's almost as if it's been the new year since we started the k-cab meet ups every week =)
Anyways, we saw the new grade 9's and we kind of did things that weren't so nice to them, we sang a song on stage, did a really epic improv dance off between the cell group leaders and generally that was how the night went =) It was kind of sad though when it just ended after the initiation game finished and we really didn't get to welcome them.
I always feel like the year I came to KNA was like...the most awesome welcome ever =) I don't even remember the torture. I just remember the encouragement/welcome notes they stuck to our backs. They're awesome =) They're the most random and craziest things but sometimes that's what makes it the most awesome and enjoyable =) So maybe I felt that it wasn't as welcoming as we might have tried to make it. I just hope they can come back next week and experience what it truly means to be part of a fellowship.

And I guess afterwards on that night, I kind of realized something. More like remembered. GM's a lonely job. And i'm not very social. I realized that in the beginning when fellowship hadn't quite started and I was excited to see everybody but...I didn't know what to say. I guess I always feel like I'm a drifter. I remember Vince once used the line...I actually kind of forgot the exact wording but it was something to do with knowing everyone but not really...being able to spend a lot of time with each of them. And i guess for me it's like I drift. Because I'm not really good with social situations. And sometimes I find people are grouped up in their grades, their schools, and our fellowship's not cliquey because I know a lot of boundaries have been broken and it's pretty easy between a lot of people just...I often feel like I'm not quite sure where my place in it is.

And maybe that's why I'm GM. I probably have some form of OCD. Meaning I'm always cleaning stuff if it's messy because I just...don't like how dirty/messy things look. So maybe that's why I make a good GM. Because I clean stuff. And i'm not very socially effective so cleaning up afterwards allows people who ARE socially effective to go out there and impact other people =) Maybe that's why I'm always scared of training new people. Because it's a...very specific job. It does get lonely. I'm grateful Ben's here =) But he's gotta leave early most of the time because
he lives in North York.
But I'm really thankful that Ev and Peter helped me clean up the stage afterwards =) Peter'll make an awesome GM one day if he chooses that route =)

But it was overall a pretty cool and awesome night =)
Today I volunteered at the Milliken Children Festival. I realized just how many people in this world are so...unenthusiastic. haha that sounds pretty saddening. Well basically in my area, I was the only one who seemed to really care. There was another girl who liked kids because she tried to help some of them but most of the volunteers I found out were there just to get some hours. Which is probably the WORST ever reason because you get no satisfaction whatsoever when you're done with it. But sadly this happens a lot.
But I realized that I ended up being the unofficial leader of the sand zone area because I was the person that cared the most about keeping the place alive and making sure the kids were alright. But yea, it was interesting and I guess I just haven't been out of my own little area of volunteering for a while so...it was alright =)

Well AV tomorrow. =)
-Chris