Hey
Yesterday was a whole bunch of AV stuff =P AV practice in the morning and then mucking around in the afternoon until around 6 where I got picked up by Si to the Admin appreciation dinner. It was funny because most of it was in Mandarin or Canto so I really couldn't understand most of it but it was pretty fun because all the English people were sitting at our table and it was fun times =) they ate SOOOO much red bean stuff. It was insanity. and watermelon. =P
And then afterwards we went to Destiny's. Second time going to bubble tea in my life. I think. maybe 3rd. I think i went once with softball last year. But i don't really remember and i was just tagging along with my sister =P
so yea, it was fun. Just chilling. Never getting mango milk tea again though =P too sweet. Used Si's new Canon SLR camera to take some pictures. I wasn't quite used to it. Felt kind of weird and kind of creepy at the end though when i accidentally drank through PY's straw and like it probably looked disgusting. Because i accidentally dropped my straw into her straw and i was trying to get it out and well it's dumb and i probably shouldn't be writing bout it anyways.
But it was fun. I was a little awkward and I felt some times when it was just...weird because i was probably overthinking. For those of you who know, you know why probably. But overall it was fun. I'm excited for the November Service when the AV team will be the worship team =P It's gonna be one crazy time. Like 4 singers =P and then beats. and then 1 guitar. unbalanced much =P
So today was another Sunday. Sundays for some reason always feel really long. Like the morning is always a whole adventure of it's own because of AV, Children worship, Sunday school and just everything. And just seeing people is great and there's always that sense of like SO MUCH on sundays. Just so much rushing or going from place to place. So this morning was alright I guess. Super tired for some reason =P Maybe it was because i slept late and woke up early and did AV. Everybody looked kind of dead. Josh and Steph included. but it was a good service i guess. I messed up once. Forgot to unmute. Like always =\ But the sermon was really good. It was above putting your eyes on higher things. And i find I myself often forget to do that. I lose perspective. It's like what Crazy love and Q3 and a bunch of other stuff all have in common. Fixing your perspective so you can see that there's a place in Heaven that's so much greater than the place we have here so why do we take some much time fussing over the smallest things ever.
So today....I wasn't proud of myself =\ not that i usually am....i think. but today I felt...feelings. I don't know what to call them. Maybe someone calls it jealousy. I'm bad at naming feelings like those. I usually don't feel them because there usually isn't much to be jealous about. And maybe there's this giant part of me that doesn't want to call it jealousy and maybe it wasn't jealousy but it was ugly. Whatever it was. And i know what triggered it and i just felt so angry at myself. I felt so ashamed of it =| And so I pray that God will change that part of me. No matter how little it comes out that it'll change. Because if it never comes out, it's better than it coming out once every couple of months right? Sometimes it's just hard to understand God's grace. When something I do makes me feel this disgusting....shouldn't it make God absolutely wretch
He's absolutely amazing.
I went for another pear run today. For 2 hours =P it was super fun. went around to different places. Kind of sad that Vince wasn't home or else we could've got to like Hughson park and chilled. It's a small park but it's beautiful because there's nobody there =) and the trees provide some beautiful lighting with the sky. I just wish it would always be like this weather. But it won't. Winter's coming. But it's alright
School Id's tomorow. fun. And school starts again. As the weekend fades.
thanks team =)
-Chris
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