He is the loving architect

Hey

So today I learned to play "she is love" on guitar =) Which is quite the accomplishment because I haven't touched my guitar in like forever. So it was nice just playing today =) And it's actually a fairly easy song. Once you get the hang of it.

Today was a pretty relaxed day overall. Did some math. Which is one out of 4 subjects that I have to do stuff for =P I'm so lazy. And procrastinator. It's like ridiculous. I'll pick it back up. Especially how i don't have school on monday because of We Day =P Pretty stoked for it. I hope it'll be awesome and that I can really take away from it. And not just find it as a social with like all my friends =)

So I guess to the bulk of it all, yesterday. Yesterday was the first bible study of the KNA year and I was paired up with Jeff because Steph and PET people were gone. And Jeff didn't go to prestudy. I guess I was unfair. As in a large part of me was still hesitant even after I got to church at like 6:30. I kind of wanted to be with my own group. To see how they answered. To share experiences with my co-cell group leaders. To see them draw the house. And in that way, I guess I wasn't really open to how God could use me in the other cell group. But the night started. And I found out Freddy could make pro presenter go without having to sit at the actual laptop. Yay for Iphones that have proremote =P But anyways, it ended and then I went in with Jeff and the rest of GAH. I still didn't feel like we'd planned enough. We had called each other for like an hour trying to go over it and kind of like getting it smoothed out. I think for me it was a little hard because I had already made a schedule with Brian and Nat Tay but we tried. We got like....2/3 done before Jeff had to go.

So the night started. We started off with drawing God and it was kind of fun because some people drew the weirdest things =P Ryan draw a very buff stickman. Then we basically went into the room and started our discussion. To summarize it up...it was alright I guess but I couldn't follow sometimes and I guess it's also a reflection of my own ability to plan. I was also very long winded. And I need to be more comfortable with silence. Because silence can be really valuable and awesome. And at the end, they prayed. Which is good. I ended up catching the last like minute of my own cell group =P There's a new guy and he's really cool. Cept he's tricky because he told me he was Brian and I legitly believed him =P

Our name is apparently Drifting Wood now. Which is pretty cool. The explanation? We're all drifting and lost at see until one day we wash up on shore and see God and He uses us to build his awesome house =) Love it. They're so cool =) And they drew the cutest house. Still a little sad that I missed it but in the perspective of things, I have a whole year with them =)

And tomorrow the boys told me I should tell her. I guess it's a topic i seem to have forgotten for a while. Maybe because i didn't see her all that much. I've been so busy whenever I see her that I barely get to talk to her. And I don't know...I should be scared or just anxious about telling her but it feels so unreal. As if i'm not going to do it. I don't even know how. I run it through my head and it sounds terribly dumb. Like it's so selfish. That i'm doing this. Isn't it? I have to pray about it.

And so this is probably the end of this post as it's getting a little late. I'll probably write one tomorrow. Pray?

-Chris