Hey
I had a strong urge to blog today because I could really see God pushing me and burdening me with certain things and I hope I never forget them because they're so strong.
Today I went to WE day by Free the Children and it was pretty intense. I guess since I went last year I felt like I knew what was going to happen. At first I wasn't very excited for it. I guess I was like "oh yay chillage with friends downtown" but it was more than that. They also didn't give out t-shirts this year =P Which is probably a good thing. Makes me less demanding and selfish. But yea, I went in with all the people and it was different. We got kind of bad seats. Even though we legitly signed up this year =P But it was alright. It felt kind of like last year all over again. Except a little more cramped and when I looked at the We day list of speakers I guess I had gone to this year's We day without really expecting all too much because I didn't have a clue who these people were. Way wrong on my part.
It was pretty intense. There were performances and there were a couple speakers where it's like "huh?" but there were some really good ones. Like Pinball. The football player. I've never watched the sport, but that man is awesome. And the paradox that he memorized was amazing. It's true. How our world is supposed to have more, better things and yet we forget. I was reminded of that today. I also saw the Jonas Brothers, Justin Beiber (facepalm) and Hedley perform a couple songs. The first 2...the JB's are like...glorified. It was kind of amusing at first but then it turned kind of sad. There were all these girls screaming like mad in the mass of 16000. It was kind of strange how so many people dedicate themselves to facebooking and twittering and all this crazy stuff about the jonas brothers/justin beiber. They're just singers. Not particularly amazing too =\ But still, it was kind of eye opening. Maybe not in the best way. Hedley was good. Some good solid banding =P Sang a new song that I can't find on Youtube. And they did Never Too Late. But all in all, the entire event was good. Some good motivational speeches and I really pray that it'll stay in my heart and that i'll never forget how fortunate I am. Because i often do.
But that's not the bulk of it even. The biggest conviction was the poverty i saw. We passed the union station when we first left the ACC and we passed this homeless man and his dog and my friend was kind of half saying that we should give something to him because we just stepped out of a motivational conference. None of us stopped. None of us offered him anything. And as I kept walking, the Holy Spirit was really telling me "do something" because it's like it resounded so deep within me. It's like the teaching from Crazy Love about how we should really connect with the poor. And about the teaching that we should love others more than ourselves. So this was in my head the whole time. I ended up at a Timmy's. Our whole group did. I wasn't going to get anything. I didn't plan to. I had been cutting down on buying food outside if i wasn't absolutely needing it because I was trying to save up on just...funding for some sheep or something. But anyways, my friend was holding a lot of change and she didn't know what to do with it and i kind of half suggested that she buy a sandwich and give it to the first homeless person she saw. She didn't have enough.
But as I sat in the Timmy's God kept calling me to go and buy something. And I thought of the homeless man and the dog. So i decided to just buy a sandwich and a milk. And I started walking back. My plan was to do it discreetly. I don't like making a show of things =\. But I couldn't find the man. I looked around for him and there were like no homeless people. I went to literally every exit. And so I was wandering, a couple of my friends saw me and they asked me what i was doing. I told them. They tried to help me find him. Time was running out. And the Go train was approaching so we made one last try around a bend and as I passed it I saw a guy on a crate, he looked kind of fine but he was asking for change and I didn't think I'd have anyone else to give it to and so I gave him the sandwich and said God Bless. I turned the corner and there was this homeless man holding a sign and he looked like he hadn't really shaved in a REALLY long time and just...he looked so sad. And I felt so helpless. I had nothing to give him. I didn't have any food. And so I passed him. And it's not that I was dissapointed that I gave it to someone that looked like they were in less need because everybody deserves a kind gesture here and there. But that there was so much need and so little to give. Or at least in my case.
But there is SOOO much to give. So much. And so i walked back with my friends. And they thought it was really nice of me. I still didn't feel like I'd done what God had really called me to. And so there was like 5 minutes where we were just standing at Union station and that whole time I wanted to get a sandwich from Mc D's and run and give it to the man but my friends told me i didn't have enough time. So on the Go train ride home. That's kind of what I was thinking of. That I could've done it. I had the time. And I didn't.
So this is what God's convicted of me. And i pray it doesn't leave me. Because this year, i'm going to work at it. My cell group is hopefully going to do a sandwich run. I'm doing street patrol with Luke. I've been too stagnant for too long.
And maybe this is what it is to be influential. To do random things that nobody would expect but in the end it shows our love for Christ and His sacrifice. Maybe today I showed my friends just a glimpse of God's kingdom. And I'm honored to be a part of that. Praise the Lord. Honestly =)
And that thing with the girl? it didn't happen yesterday =\
maybe tomorrow. I need to pray. Sam was right, I shouldn't be doing it for the reason that Sam and Simon told me. Thanks friends =) All of you. Who are reading this. Love you =)
-Chris
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