Spirit of Timidity?

2 Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Hey

I was reading this yesterday during devos and it kind of stuck in my head. It was actually a pretty darn good verse. Maybe just in the circumstance i'm in but the big word was timidity. I feel like for the past while i've been so....passive in a sense. I await for things to come and i'm really excited about them but that also means that I'm not excited for the parts that I'm not excited for. Maybe that was a little bad in terms of wording but I mean like....at school I feel like i'm so rushed now that I don't even have time to talk to God in the hallways. To meditate on a class. To meditate on the things that happened. I'm getting so caught up everything at school and just getting from place to place that I don't realize things that are happening.

So I need to find a way to just...calm down and take it slower and just reflect. And also, the verse said spirit of LOVE and SELF-DISCIPLINE. Those I guess are major things for me right now. I don't feel very loving. At least not actively =\ It's like i've become terribly lazy. Like I barely do anything anymore. And that links into self-discipline. To actively do things. To just...take that time to sleep earlier, to pray more, to love others. That's self -discipline is it not? =\ I need to do that.
so i guess that'd be the prayer request. thanks
-Chris