a little boy could easily get lost

Hey

Feels like I haven't blogged in a while but in essence, it's only been 2 days. A day feels like a long time. Or it can.

Yesterday went to church/simon's house to practice for WTF dance and it's pretty intense. But it looks incredible. Or at least when the others do it =P I'm not as fluid or as graceful but hopefully the other 6 on the team can make up for that =P I'm excited for WTF. I guess a little scared of the intense practicing on the week of and the kind of reaction my parents will have and for myself how physically drained I'll be and how I'll balance school and WTF. I'm also really praying that God continues to be a major part of WTF. Not even a part. The core of it. Because we can often get caught up in technicalities and forget that God is the center of everything. And if anything is displeasing to Him I pray he'll completely break that and remake it. Even if it's the day before. Because I'd rather have God's message revealed, not a show.

Recently I've been reading Forgotten God because my sister got it for me for my baptism and it's in the same style as Crazy Love. And it's intense in the way that it challenges you. And maybe part of me doesn't feel ready to be challenged like that. Maybe part of me is scared. But I don't want to be scared of going deeper. I want to lead a life worthy of the calling that I have been given. God would you use me. In ways that I can't possibly imagine. In places I'd be scared to go otherwise without your Spirit.

And i'm sorry for being a bad friend. Maybe for those reading this and for those that aren't. I guess for the past while I've been so out of it. Especially this past week. I'm distracted, not really focused or directed. So I need to be geared. To gather motivation. And spend the rest of my break connecting with people, keeping people accountable and finishing up my work.
I started on my homework today and in the morning I felt so miserable. I don't know if it was the sleep and the lack of sunlight or what it was but I was starting my math and I felt so messed up and it was a struggle for me to get back into the mindset of it all. It's been a while since I did actual work. Like I did housekeeping stuff today. Cleaned up my room. Inserted pictures. Started writing in my photo albums. Studied for G1. And it may sound like a lot but I'm still lazing around much more than I should. So I'm sorry. And I'll try harder. God I'm sorry. Would you forgive me for being so careless these past couple of days?  

p.requests:
- discipline and self control
- love. I feel like I'm not giving enough of that recently. I'm sorry

thanks
-Chris