Chris Version Billion.1.0

Hey 

So it's been...a really intense past couple of days. Actually just yesterday and today. But 2 days is a lot. A lot could happen in 2 days. Whenever somebody says "A lot could happen in.." I think of the Wong Fu movie where the Indian girl is talking with the guy and she says that. But that's besides the point =P Some lessons and just a lot of....things that I need to reflect on in general. 

Friday morning I planned to wake up nice and early and go for a jog but I found that my track pants were in the wash and my mom wouldn't let me saying it was too cold. So i did math until I went out for jap buffet. I was kind of excited for that. Not because of the food. I'm never really into buffets. Gluttony. And just too much food. And too much non-vegetables. I was excited to see my cousin. She's always cool to talk to and the only cousin who's close to me in age...that i see a lot =P It ended up being...an interesting experience to say the least. They gave us one round of food and then they didn't bring any for the next like 45 minutes. I personally didn't care too much and I think everybody got a decent amount of food but my aunt and uncle weren't very satisfied and they got up and kind of made a fuss with the head of restaurant kind of thing and then we got ridiculous amounts of food and i felt ridiculous afterwards. I guess it's happened before and in both cases, me and my cousin feel kind of.....we feel out of place. Because i don't think we'd ever do this. Like i get that they're busy. It's a PA day, they probably didn't expect so many people and their families but...i don't know. Also one of the reasons why i don't like buffets. They kind of come with the demands of food and people ordering WAY  too much and more than they can eat. At least I got to spend some time with my aunt. 

Afterwards it was k-cab chillage. And basically, it was really fun with Taboo at Steph's house =) It was really funny because it was grade 12's and freddy vs. the teletubbies =P and the grade 12's would guess the most RANDOM things like tazmanian devil. And mexicans =P Played in the basement. That brings back...a whole lot of memories =P sleepovers, vbc drama practices, random instances. =) Kind of sad we didn't get to actually do any accountability and it was rushed towards the end after we ordered pizza (which was fun because pizza pizza has SOO much more variety than you'd expect) and we all had to head back over to fellowship to set up. When I got to church it was wierd because it didn't feel like a friday. I didn't feel as like energized to set up as usual. Maybe it was the pizza. Regardless we got it set up and then Calvin and me went to pray and talk and I always love those times because it's calm and it's only a couple minutes but it's still good time to just sit down and talk and plan and just sit in our room. The night went alright. I felt like I did a lot of talking. And it felt rushed. The content was good and I felt like we could've gone so much deeper but there was so little time. And i made a last minute decision and I really need to talk to Calvin about that because sometimes i feel like I take too much control. And afterwards, during worship, I probably had the biggest mess up in my slide ability and I was impatient and i made the mistake of clicking too many times + beta version = no lyrics on screen. And it made me so frustrated and in the end of it I just stopped trying and tried to worship. To just forget about the slides and to just worship and ask God for forgiveness for my impatience and to just lift it to Him. 

Afterwards there was some prayer and I'm really glad we had it. And it was strange and yet amazing to just have the notion to pray when no more words could come to my mind. Because that's what we do. We give it to our Father and know that he can do amazing things and much better than our little words. 

Today....i woke up and my mom was kind of yelling about how i've been at church EVERYDAY for the past 3 days. Yesterday i was at church for like...6 hours. Today like 7. Tomorrow...i don't know if i should go to the birthday lunch thing because...i don't know if it's a good idea =\ I had to leave worship practice early today because it went a little overtime and my mom said 11:30. And i had a doctors appointment for my eyelid. Which was "allergies". But worship practice itself was good. It's always fun during worship practice. We found some new backgrounds and Steph made a gmail account. It was funny looking at the options that they gave her because apparently there are other steph liews in this world =P. Also it was an epic. Epics are epic =) As the name implies. And kenny always has pretty voice harmonies =)

The k-cab meeting today was good. We planned out 4 months and in general we talked about how our cell groups were doing and it was good. Maybe some people were tired but there was some good prayer spurts and I really love when we do that. When we stop and pray. And pray about whatever we're doing. Excited for the next couple of months. Drilling in love and relationships. REALLY important things =) excited for that. And i really want to have dinner with Chung and all the other cell group leaders. It'd be good. To simply sit down and talk about it all. 

Well this concludes my week =P I guess i didn't really talk about how I was doing. I guess this morning's dream reminded me of the urgency but i have no clue how to. It's not as easy as "parents, i believe in God and I want you to too because I want to be able to have you with me in Heaven" or something like that. And...i just need to balance. Because this weekend....it's too much church for my parents' liking. thanks

p.requests:
- balance of everything (family, chores, church, kna, serving, school, friends)
- discipline to continue doing my work and not laze around
- to continue to sense that urgency that God has placed in me for my parents and friends

thanks
- Chris