fear? whom shall i fear.

How often do we pray that God would use the Spirit and move us?
How often we ask that He use us to do his will.
But yesterday I realized that there's a real fear of this.
That as much as I don't want to admit, I fear God bringing me somewhere incredibly insane.
But what kind of trust is that?
it's limited trust. if any at all

but i don't want to live a safe life. If anything that's not what we've been called to. The apostles weren't safe. They rejected the Sanhedrin's orders to keep quiet because they couldn't keep the Good News quiet. Would we have that same exact zeal.
Some might call us crazy. radical. ridiculous. fundamentalists.
but is that just the response of someone who's afraid of going where the Spirit leads them?
I pray I don't get caught up here. In safety. In routine.
that if i need to, i'll go wherever He leads me.

For the Lord is my salvation and light,
whom shall i fear
the Lord is the stronghold of my life,
of whom shall i be afraid

paraphrased Psalms 27.1 i think