One year ago, at about this time, I was talking to an amazing friend and I remember I was worried. I was worried about what would happen this year. I was worried about the changes I would take. If I'd change for better or for worse. She told me I could worry up to the 31st but in the new year, no more worrying.
This year, I welcome the new year with excitement. There's reflection as it's kind of proper to reflect on a whole year. But that's kind of hard isn't it? Reflecting on 365 days. I think to be honest I only remember about 30 that would be like actually vivid in my head. Maybe more =P VBC is at least 10 days.
I don't think I'll come up with a list. I'd be terrible at those =). And so I will write in paragraphs. As is customary to me I guess.
Firstly I think the most important is God and my relationship with Him. I think last year at exactly this time, that wouldn't be what's on my mind. It'd be something like school or a girl or something that's not God. That in itself is amazing. It makes me joyful to know that I've grown in Christ. To know that everyday my experiences are shaping me to become more God-driven and trusting in Him. And so for this next year I guess it's about breaking free. Breaking free from complacency and really living a life worthy of the calling that I have. And also to really delve into His word. I'm glad that this year was more on spiritual discipline. Learning to consistently pray and do devos and trying to give everything up to Him. I'm excited for how I grow this year. In my faith. I got baptized just like a week and a bit ago and I guess now I'm considered a spiritual baby and...now i need to be nourished =)
Fellowship up next? In grade 10 I had Escape as my cell group and although it wasn't like the ideal cell group, I think I really learned alot. I learned about serving. About yearning for a real group of believers that could fellowship together. I learned about kind of helping out with a cell group. Sending out emails. You know that sort of stuff =) And i guess that prepared me for this year. And the trainings we had. I really loved those. And I remember the night when me and Ben had to lead =P It was pretty jokes. It got a lot better and it was just a great experience to have k-cab meet together so consistently at the beginning of the year =) Loved it. And I'm blessed with Drifting Wood =) It's absolutely amazing. I know I say it all the time. Everytime I come home on Friday I can say God's moved in some way, shape or form within our cell group. Accountability partner time, personal time with people, group discussions or just being able to meet up with the cell group leaders beforehand. And this new year, I'm excited for it =) Meeting up with Chung and the other cell group leaders sounds like it's just gonna be awesome. I think a lot of us share the same sentiments. On the cell group. I know for sure that Nat Tay and Chung share it because we've talked before and I know that Brian and Calvin have good experiences with their accountability partners. It just makes me smile thinking about Drifting Wood and how they never cease to amaze me =) Thank you God.
Fellowshiping in general this year? I'm glad that we've gotten back to meeting up on Wednesday. We kind of stopped meeting up early last year but we did have a sleepover and for that I'm thankful. VBC team this year was...different. Some more new people. Some of the oldies. It was still good times but I guess it just wasn't the same. But it was really interesting having non-christians. And I still remember one of the girls saying that if they became Christian one of the reasons would be because of the VBC skit team. That really showed me how God builds up experiences to lead to something. I love the accountability group and I pray that we continue to meet up. For the past while it's just been the 3 of us but still it helps build up our friendship and sometimes even though we don't deep talk we still bond and it's good knowing that I can always share whatever burdens I have with them. And even though we haven't hit the rooftop in a while I've realized that fellowshipping doesn't reside with a location, but with people. I know it's obvious =P But it's something I think i fully realized.
Family I think has really grown within the past couple of months. I guess starting with the whole breast cancer struggle and just spending time with my parents and missing my sister. I also realized the real immensity of my parents not being Christian and the urgency of that because I don't want to one day end up in Heaven and not have them there as well. I'm also beginning to really find a place in helping out around the house. And yesterday I experienced a kind of eagerness that I hope to continue to do.
School. haha well I got the principal award for grade 10 but probably not for this year. But I'm really enjoying most of my subjects. peer helping, bio, photography. Math is a lesson. That i need to start getting caught up with the math homework and I can't depend on my own intellect anymore. I think a big thing is my friends from school. I haven't hung out with them alot and I feel myself slowly drifting away from them. Maybe not drifting but it's not growing. Like it's at a kind of stand still. It's almost as if with most of them I can't find a lot of things to say because my life revolves around God so much but they aren't Christian and wouldn't really understand. But I've invited them to fellowship and church a couple times and so far...they've come twice =) and hopefully they'll come to WTF. But with them I can also feel myself not being as selective as I was before. I don't really have any grudges with any of them and I'm able to talk to them all the same. Well most of them. I'm still working on it.
I think that comes to the end of our reflection time. That isn't all of it but it's the stuff I remember for now =P
I guess serving in general this year has been really great. AV is time consuming but it's allowed me to get to know a lot of people. VBC was amazing again. The children. Bugs 1 =) Nathan, William, Frieda, Katy, Tiffany, Felix. writing them down so i don't mix them up with my teacup 5s =P SI was an adventure. It was interesting. It was less friendship and less bonding with my fellow volunteers but it was still fun. And I loved biking everyday for volunteering. That's a pretty good deal =) Ride for Refugees was intense =) Thighs of steel, giant green farming machines, Sam Gu, Valenti and like 4 hours of intensity =) Retreat was amazing again. A different experience but the candle light sharing was as amazing as ever. Arts Cafe was amazing serving with PY and being a part of her story and just being blessed to hear it and to be inspired by it. And it's a year of the blogs =P I'm always reading people's blogs. There's....10 tabs that auto come on when i turn on opera. I agree with PY, why facebook when you have blogs =) Thanks EvMak, Simon and others for continuing to inspire me with your own lives and how God's working in your lives =)
So really things for the now. These things that people call resolutions. I just call them goals =P And goals are continually changing and being developed. How strange that we only make goals at the beginning of a year. A lot can happen in a year =)
- That i grow in God. That's the first priority for this year. Because it's become the center of my life and I'm glad that it has.
- Grow in my friendships. Keep others accountable. Learn to cope with different types of people and love them all the same.
- Diligent in school and at home and not lazy.
- Willing to go wherever He takes me =)
thanks for reading this ridiculously long post =P
-Chris
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