You took the fall. and thought of me. above all

Hey 

So yesterday was accountability night. I'll keep this super short because well...I need to get to sleep but yesterday was...well it was pretty awesome =) in it's own little way =) Like every week. R wasn't here this week in Drifting Wood. Oh to backtrack, I went early and I kind of couldn't find PY so i didn't end up going to Joy practice =\ Which kind of sucks because it actually did happen and I kind of feel bad for missing it. I basically did math with Marco and kind of just...chilled with worship team....until calvin came. And nat . Then we planned the night =) I love when we do that. Sit in a room, talk about each other's lives, go through the plan lightly. Know what each other's doin. So Freddy got a beta version of the new pro presenter =P LAGGY. But in the end it kind of worked out. I guess they're excited to see it come out =P. Me? I don't mind the old one =P But for our cell group it was good. R wasn't there. So it was a little more quiet. But other people answered =P And my accountability partner was C. and it was nice talking to him. I know he's not fully open with me but it's alright because it's still deep. His use of words is....quite good =P Like he knows how to speak in an eloquent manner =P I'm really looking forward to being his accountability partner because he's really awesome and just... yea =) 

Today....well it was quite a day. This morning I did worship practice and...I got to fellowship with a great friend =) A great friend. And it was strange because I could see how her experiences were kind of things I'd gone through. And for a lot of it while she spoke I couldn't come up with anything to say but...maybe that's okay. Maybe all I was there for was an ear. And hopefully I did it well. So that was a super way to start off the morning. Reminded me of the old rooftop days. When it was a while ago =)  

Then I went to Markville's Roots because my mom wanted me buy sweaters and stuff  because my aunt had a 50% coupon on like everything. I ended up buying 2 sweaters and one pair of sweat pants for $100. And i felt like I broke the vow i made. To not buy anything. And there's a part of me that says it's okay because i'll use it and whatnot but....still. Did I really need those? And it doesn't equate if i give like $100 in return to World Vision or something like that because I'd do it anyway. I guess I'm struggling with whether I needed it or not. And what's necessary. And what I should be spending my money for. I guess it's something for me to really think about. I officially gave Drifting Wood our Christmas challenge last night. I'm really excited to see what happens. And I think...we'll be able to match it =) But I pray it's so much that we can't match it =P Because it's so much. That'd be absolutely amazing. 

Tonight I wasted a good 1.5 hours doing stupid things. Flash games to be exact. And I got so sick of myself and my lack of self control that after dinner I committed to not turn on the computer until i finished my portrait and studied for bio. And I thank God because I was able to do it. And it felt good. Not being consumed by worldly things that mean nothing. And art's always fun. A little pencil shading here, a little smudging here. Good release =) I'm kind of sad I didn't get to talk to many people tonight. But I'm glad I got things done. And I have to summarize that testimony =P Well that's about it for now. It's getting late. 

P. requests:
- discipline 
- really pray about what I do and where i put my money and also not to put that much emphasis on money. Because it's not the only way i can give. it's nearly the smallest way i can give 
- real devotions with a real devoted heart 

peace =) 
-Chris