would you break this hardened heart?

hey

so i'll keep it short today considering it's already 10 and i really should be doing my devos, sleeping and what not.
last night i felt kind of bad because i stayed up till 1 doing my project and my mom was helping me even though i told her to go to bed because i know she's more susceptible to like flu and stuff than i am. and in the end the main reason why it was so rushed was because i couldn't read dates properly and also because i need to be more self disciplined =\
for the past week i've been sitting at a computer for most of the day and sometimes i'm doing stuff. and sometimes i'm just playing games =\ and this is something God really needs to change in me. Because when i fill my life with garbage like flash games, i have no time left to do His work. Shortcomings. I just came up with that word. And it seems to apply =\

i wanted to reply to an email today. to catch up with a friend. to do my testimony. to write a sponsorship letter. to start on a lesson plan.
I got one of those things done today. Somehow 3 hours just seemed to fly by and pass. Sometimes my conversations with people are fruitful. and yet, sometimes there's a lot of empty space between them and no real substance. But i guess today i also spent like a LITTLE more time in the kitchen. Which i think i'll start doing. Because i learn to cook and spend some time with my parents.
Also, the bible study's still...a little worrying. And i'm not thinking about it as much as I should. And i need to give it up to God.
And to give myself more devo time, i will go now.

p.requests:
- that I will give God the things that i'm still holding onto
- to be more self disciplined
- to not be worried about things that are just too small to worry about
- to be focused

thanks =)
-Chris