eyes on the Unseen

Hey 

Firstly, it's some epic weather outside. Looks kind of like those mystery novels. Misty, warm, kind of rainy and it's like gorgeous. But I was thinking to myself like...it should be snowing. Not misting. We've kind of blown up our world kind of insanely. It's so damaged that it can't snow in november anymore because the weather's so tripped up =\. Like it makes it seem nice...but I guess not for those who like the snow. 

Today I was kind of focused I think on marks which is something I shouldn't be. Like I got my calc test back today and I was like OH SNAP because the mark was kind of...bad =\ Like i'm probably getting the worst marks of my entire high school years in calc. But when I was back home I was thinking about where that comes from. Where that sense of failure came from. There were two sources. One was the fact that I felt like I had kind of let down my dad because I can totally do the stuff and because he spent time with me the night before the test to help me study. But the second was based on marks and how my marks were going to drop and all that jazz. And then I told myself that rationale was alright because it was grade 12 and it was for university. But who even knows if I'm going to university. I found myself being consumed by something that was rather trivial. And I was asking God to take that from me. to take away my obsession with marks and just to give me a heart to want to do well and use the gifts He's given me. 

I also went to Koolskool today. It was nice =) Pretty chills. I think i'm a little lazy =P It's different. From what I used to remember it as. They did worship for like the first time today. I wish I was there for like a sound check or just to hear them practice. It's nice being back. It's a pretty chills ministry and it kind of reminds me of peer helping =P The kids are....kind of the same. Well maybe the Koolskool ones are more lively =) And then I got to kind of chill with some of them afterwards. I realized Koolskool's REALLY short. Like it's just an hour and a half and it feels like it disappears really fast. But it's amazing to see the change in some of the kids. And hopefully some of them absorbed the message and the worship. I hope i can go back soon. 

That probably concludes it up. I need to make my cell group bucket. For the moneys. For the challenge. I'm excited to see how they respond =) They're super amazing. Gonna see them tomorrow. Hopefully we have some discussion =) 

p. requests: 
- just to work hard and not to worry about marks
- diligent and disciplined in everything I do 
- mom 

thanks team

-Chris