Time...

Hey

So i couldn't quite come up with a title for this post because it's a mix of rambling, thanking and just...random ranting =)

Last night was KNA Arts Cafe and it was amazing because so much happened that was because of God and not because of our own abilities because i know our hearts were all racing ridiculously at 7:30.

But it happened. It happened and it was beautiful. And it was just amazing seeing everything come together and how amazing He works.

For myself, I guess I wasn't feeling so well beforehand. I was a mix of emotions. A lot of emotions. I was kind of sad because I hadn't fully attended all the practices and I'd gone after volunteering at camp and at times it felt half-hearted, like i didn't deserve to be part of the skit or whatnot because i didn't have my heart into it.

And i guess i also felt kind of...lonely?
I guess when we were preparing I didn't feel like I really belonged. Like I never was a very sociable person and so I didn't feel like I fit in really well amongst the PET people or the musical people or the UHS people. Kind of like a drifter.

And I was nervous. Why? Partly because I was going to do this in front of people and i really didn't want to mess up PY's really brave sharing and also i guess...sadly girl issues.

But I guess God really used that and showed me that I'm not really alone and Tim gave a quick "pep talk" before we all hit the stage and I was reminded that it wasn't about me. And it was encouraging and also convicting and so in the end, everything just kind of flowed from one to the other.

I guess I'd like to explain more. To talk more about how am I right now. But I have to go. But i'm glad I typed enough about Arts Cafe. It was really....awesome =)

-Chris