Time to Breathe

Hey

So this is technically the first day of blogging.

And I guess I feel...kind of empty. At the moment. Like i'm not quite sure what i'm up to and just...what happened yesterday.

By yesterday I mean fellowship.

So 2 days ago, I went out and sat on a play structure in the open sky and just did my devos there. And I guess I felt so free there, so open to just the world and being able to move. Like doing devos in my room is alright too but there's just something about the way the air smells and just everything about being outside.
So that day went pretty awesome and I guess i felt so up and about and in a sense it was good to feel so exuberant.

But then last night I guess i came home and felt kind of empty because I the night felt kind of disconnected and I felt like there wasn't really any true fellowship. Like I loved the idea of painting and it was really great and it was innovative and new and the idea itself was great it was just that it seemed that within my own group, there was a lack of unity in a sense. Behind me, I know at least 3 people didn't touch the canvas or feel included that much because everyone was having their own conversations. And I know i'm to blame for this as much as anyone.

But when I think about the night as a whole. The WHOLE night, there were some pretty amazing things that happened. In chronological order, the first would have to be weeding. That was some pretty awesome fun =). Mostly with Freddy, Nat and it was just some good times. And also, I guess I really liked how the worship went for the night. It felt so pure and old school andI guess that's something to be happy about.

So overall, last night was alright. Took some time, but after sitting and breathing and i guess reflecting upon it, it got better.

And so today I awoke to a beautiful day outside and started my day off with a nice bike ride followed by some music and there was some strange parts of that but in the end, I guess it ended up going alright. I just hope she's alright now.

The sun glows high above in the sky and despite the wind, it still brings a sense of security and ther's not much to worry about is there?
So as it stands, I'm just going to go out and do whatever happens and just pray it just...lives. =)

I've always wanted to say over and out =P

-My Unspoken Words